What if she had no mommy?

Baby Sis is 20 weeks today!

The other day, I was changing Baby Sis's diaper and making her laugh and I actually thought out loud, "What if you had no mommy?  Who would play with you and make you laugh?" 

What if???

Let me tell you a little about my sweet on her 20th week birthday.  

She is a momma's girl.

She smiles at just about anyone who makes eye contact and she melts everyone's heart that stops to talk to her.

I think her favorite place is W*lmart because there are so many people there and they all want to stop and soak in some of the smiles.

She hardly ever cries (don't hate me, just read on).   I mean, she sends out a little fuss when the diaper is dirty and no one tends to it fast enough and she puts up a good attempt at the mad cry when she wakes up from a nap if her momma doesn't nurse her fast enough, but she really never cries (except for the last 5 minutes of the car ride home from church on a Wednesday night...an hour after her bed time).
 *Disclaimer : she either does not cry because third baby's are perfect gems send from heaven, or her mother spoils her rotten, because she is the third...or a little of both.

So, what would this little gem's life look like if she were an orphan?

Would she smile at the drop of a hat?

Would her eyes twinkle when the little old lady stopped by to chat with her?

Would she cry more?

Would she be rolling over or grabbing her feet?

What would her life look like?



And with all those thoughts, I wondered about my other girls, what would their lives look like....

it almost made me sick....




How can we not adopt?

How can anyone not consider adopting?

Reece's Rainbow: Child of the Week

My heart aches for Africa

I am wondering today, what food my son or his birth mother have to eat right now. This is one of many articles that talk about the looming famine that is hovering over the Horn of Africa.

But I had to look for it.

It's not one of the 36 featured stories on the Yahoo front page.

It's not one of the 10 World articles on Yahoo News.

Why is no one talking about the fact that 10 million people don't have enough food to eat...right NOW?

Could this be my Caleb?

(Almost) Wordless Wednesday

*Its not the best picture quality, but oh such cheeks!

The Big 10

Ten years ago, I went to the courthouse with my awesome hubby and said I do.

There was no fan fair.

There was no white dress or flower girl.

There wasn't really even much of God in that day.

But, we had love, a baby on the way (yes, we did it all backwards).

And over the next several years, God would pull us each to him and even closer to each other.


10 years

2 countries

3 states

4 babies (one in heaven)

and one baby (adoption!) on the way

I love you babe!

Need a good laugh?

Well, here you have it...

Today, I cleaned my tush off, then I cleaned some more, and then made the kids help me clean for the "adoption lady".

Then about 3, Baby Sis woke up, I fed her, changed her and asked Little Sis to "babysit" while I showered for the homevisit in about 2 hours.

Turned on the water, got in, started washing my hair

and Little Sis runs into the bathroom and says,


"She's here!"


I answered...

"Who's here?!!!" (though, deep down inside I already knew)

Little Sis, "The adoption lady!"

Yes, she had come 2 solid hours early, and arrived precisely as I was shampooing my hair!!!

So, knowing one dog would attack (okay, maybe not really, but she would scare the you know what out of her) and one would jump on and possibly knock her over.....I said what any mother would say,

"DON"T answer the door!!!"

And I franticly rinsed my hair, jumped out of the shower, wrapped the towel around my head and put a robe on, calmly proceeded to answer the door....

We both had a good laugh at her miscalculation of the time and I was secretly happy that she had stopped at DQ and said if she hadn't, she would have been even earlier. (I would have been sweaty, dirty, in my cleaning clothes with no bra on, ahem...)

So, if she was looking to surprise me, she did, though yesterday might have been worse (because the house wouldn't have been clean)....

Homevisit Day!

So, we are busy (or I should really say I am busy) cleaning. Our sweet social worker is coming this afternoon to meet Baby Sis and to have our homevist for our update. We haven't seen her in a year, and while I would have hoped that we would be making travel plans right now to bring our precious Calab home, I am just as happy to show our sweet girl off and to push forward with going to Africa.

God has taught me several lessons over the past year and unfortunately I still may be in the proccess of learning (what can I say...I'm stubborn like that sometimes). I do know that the longer we are in this, the more I need to point everything towards Him.

He is the reason we are going to Africa, (lets face it, staying home would be much easier)

He is the reason we are adopting, (cause we make pretty cute babies ourselves, and as my hubby would say...it's so much fun! Ha!)

He is the reason we have opened up our hearts to something other than a healthy child, (more on than to come)

He is the reason we are making this whole decision (it would be much easier to chase the "American Dream"



"...once our eyes are opened, we can't pretend we don't know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows that we know, and holds us responsible to act."
Proverbs 24:12