Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Please ignore the fact that I have frizzy hair and no makeup...hey I'm pregnant, I'm doing good to be dressed!
So, it was brought to my attention that I haven't posted on my blog for awhile....believe it or not, I know....... it's been awhile.
I'd like to give you my reasons and just ask for grace. Quite simply, my blog is a sore reminder of our adoption. Not that I am unhappy about our adoption, just unhappy that we am not moving forward with it. Even though my logic side knows that this is best for our family, I know that this is best for all of our children, the adopted and the new baby, my emotional side wants to go to Africa now, wants to know who my sweet boy is now.
For this reason, I really don't want to blog that much. In fact, I'd like to avoid the topic of Africa, and yet I am completely drawn to it every chance I get. I bought some Ugandan beads from a local ministry, I am looking for ways to support Africa with our money, and I weekly ask DH if he wants to move to Africa...even if for only 6 months (he's not biting yet). Anyways, I am sad that we are on hold, but less so since I am excited to bring this little one into the world. It's even hard to read the blogs of families that are in the process of adopting....I am still following and check in every now and then, but not as much as I did before.
As for the little one growing in my belly, for those who don't already know...it's a............
Yes, a third girl, everyone is excited, but the daddy would have been quite over the moon if he was getting a boy....he will just have to wait until we go to Africa. Her name will be Alyssa Joy, as in Joy is her middle name, not all together ;) Her big sisters are so excited, but I don't think they have any clue what is in store for our home in 3 months, he, he, he....they'll be good helpers, I'm sure. Little sis did confide in me that she likes being the youngest in the family "because they get the most attention" Oh boy! That little one is in for a shock, but I did tell her that mommy and daddy would still love her just as much even when she's not the youngest.
We are doing several things different with this little one, so much so that when spoken out loud, I feel weird, but as I make my plans, I don't feel all that different. The first thing is we are planning a homebirth with a midwife. I am excited that there will be no trip to and from the hospital, hoping to be completely comforable in our own house, ready so snuggle with my baby in my own bed after she is born. The second is where I really seem to lose people ;) We are going to cloth diaper this time, my biggest goal in this undertaking is to save money. Before you completely close your mind to cloth, know that it is nothing like the cloth your mother or grandmother may have used. My favorites that I have bought so far are these, they are so soft and cute. I'm not so ambishious to say that we will never use disposable diapers, we probably will at the beginning, maybe at night, and probably when we are out of the house. I am just too excited to be a new mommy again, the diapers, breastfeeding, and the tiny clothes....I wish I could skip over the next 12 weeks!
In case you were wondering what I look like, here is a picture of me about 6 weeks ago.....
Picture Fundraiser Update
I'm thinking that I didn't even update on the fundraiser that we did back in November...it was great. Two wonderful ladies from church took pictures and braved the cold, ALL day long. Several families got some awesome pictures and we were able to make $630 towards our adoption. We plan on having other fundraisers, but we'll see how I feel in the months to come. I'm doing good just to get the day to day stuff done, fundraisers are sort of on the back burner for this pregnant momma.